to fill all the love that you have,
every pain becomes as small as an atom"
Humans. We are the intellectual beings designed by God. Our genetic configuration throughout our life span can be molded depending on the energies that we gathered or invited. Our highest self is ruled by 3 fields of paradigm; body (somatic), soul (etheric) and God (Universe). Any disruption of the connection between these fields will lead to pain or inertia. Among life forms we have the capacity to communicate and be moved by this electrical impulses called love. Love is an electrical force in the cosmic field that runs infinitely in a centrifugal motion to connect and attract souls. God is love. God is the universe, governing the constant and unraveling perpendicular force within our beings and our affinity to other elements. The force that could either ignite us or redirect us to achieve our highest self.
Our souls our like stars connecting and igniting across the cosmic field. When we fall in love, we are like particles or elements forming a stronger compound rotating within the universe at a constant rate. Magnetic energy, momentum and distance maintains the strength or immortality of that bond as we conquer the changing frequencies of the universe.
When the distance between two particles becomes longer, it will make a way to have various energy pass through that bond and in the long run, it will either disrupt or strengthened that affinity. Like the moon constantly revolving around the earth amidst the uneven forces of the universe. That's how I see my pain when I lost the woman I loved for 8 years. I am the particle that was able to withstand the unraveling force of time and space, she slowly becomes the particle that losing its affinity and ignition in spite the intention and positive energies surrounding me. We are of different space, time and the earth beneath us is also changing the frequencies affecting our consciousness as we struggle to maintain that affinity called love. It was a drastic disruption of energy, a strong surge of centrifugal force that catapults me to the conundrums of the universe.
"Two people lost in a storm,
where we go...where we go"
I'm like a star that is exploding and catalyzing in the unknown universe in order to survive. The light coming from the particle that I used to combine with is slowly drifting away to the cosmos and will only become a memory, an illusion brought by the past. Catalyzing on its own without my existence. I would sense the pain across the grid of the universe. She was my universe. The air that I breathe, one of the strongest light, once I thought, second to God that illuminates me.
"Lightning don't strike, the same place twice
you and I, say goodbye, when the angels cry
True love's a gift, we let it drift in a storm
Every night I feel the angels cry"
-Mariah Carey; Emancipation of Mimi
I accepted the process at the moment being in the oblivion, but my soul is burning, floating my way to the ground...to the earth. You are my earth. The same earth I would like to see growing and in its nurturing state even you are no longer in my universe. We will never know when will God bring us to the same frequencies and energies that we have before but of less painful and destructive in movement. That both of us can breathe. But for now, we are like stars. Lost in the cosmic bent of the universe. Because the centrifugal force can only keep us for so long with that other form of energy until we find what is meant for us, who are meant for us. I am leaving this question to God, the Supreme Being, the Universe "What energy, space and consciousness I can achieve, create, uncreate and conspire in order for us to breathe and live in the same Universe?"
"Living on the edge outta control,
and my world just won't let me slow down,
but in my biggest picture
was a photo of you and me"
-Usher Raymond IV; 8701
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres"
-1 Corinthians 13:4-7